#51 Presence 

Imagine you are there!
But how does it matter?
Even if you stay or leave,
Nothing much changes.

If that is it, think
You are there, but your presence is unfelt.
Surrounded by a lot of voices, others
There is work, there is soul, there is authority above.

Does it change anything though?

Probably it does.
As long as the authority is established,
An invisible target shall stand in front.
I will stand by to aim my feelings
Wiping away staleness, wiping fear, losing all.

Let the heart lose today,
She will arrive there when the time is right.

#50 লিলুয়া বাতাস 

এক যে ছিল সে বসে, একা
চোখ ফিরিয়ে নিও না,
হাত ধরবে কি তার সূর্যাস্তের সময়?

দিন নেই রাত নেই
বসে বসে সে ভাবে পাবে কি তোমায়
পাগল সে তোমার তরে এখনও।

মায়া কাড়ে সব
জীবনের খোলস থাকে শুধু
ভেসে চলে আঁধারের যাত্রী কোন অজানায়!

তোমার ছবি থাকে তার মনে
ছায়ার ওপর ছায়া পড়ে অস্তিত্বের আড়ালে
কখনো কি ভেবেছ এই আকাশ শেষ কোথায়?

দূরে সরে যেতে যেতে
কাছেও আসা যায়
যদি মন চায়, কোনো এক সীমানায়!

আকাশ বাতাসে আশা গড়া
শহর প্রান্তর থেকে বেরিয়ে,
পৃথিবী ছেড়ে কোথায় লুকোতে?

চোখের পাতায় ছুয়ে দিলে
কাটেনি বিস্ময়
এ যে এক স্বপ্ন সত্যি হবার গল্প।

তারার আলোয় হারাবে তাকে
যেখানে ফেলে আসা,
সাগর পারে পায়ের ছাপের ভিড়ে।

শুকনো ফুল ঝরবে যখন
বুকের ভেতর জ্বলবে আগুন
সে শুধু তোমার অপেক্ষায়।

স্মৃতির সাথে মিশে যায় জীবন
দুফোঁটা জল আজ আর আসেনা
মেঘ শুধু আসে আর যায়, বৃষ্টি আনেনা।

সে বসে থাকে,
একা পথে খুঁজে ফেরা পুরোনো দিন
লিলুয়া বাতাস, মন পড়ে থাকে সেথায়।
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#49 Blue Moon

Speak out for real
What you have been holding so far
Things need to change
From how you have survived all scars
Now live your life without fears.

The abuses,
They do not know how you suffer,
Won’t stop,
Even if you submit to their power.

Wake up
Look into the eyes that stare you down
Rise up
You have to break your chains.

When you come out
No one will stand by you and help
I know it’s not easy
But trust me things will be okay!

You never ever know
How much you can help yourself
More than others
It’s your life and it will stay with you.

Uncage yourself
No more things will hold you back
Make it happen
You need to break free only once.

Look above
There’s a silver lining up there
Future changes
Things do not remain the same.

Fly to the sky
When you wish to move to another world
Blue Moon,
There’s a floating palace waiting for you.

One step
Is all it takes to walk away
Welcome,
To yourself in the end.
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#46 Mirror of Colours

Tearing through the haze smirks a shout
A whirling run makes life a lot less complicated
What was together from the start
Has now gone away in two different ways.

Starting at the night the fears become stronger
Loneliness feels less lonely, at least one companion
The pillow doesn’t get wet, they think I have matured.
Only if people knew how bad it hurts to pretend and live.

The mossy undergrowth has decided to cover the scars
Can the light pass through the broken glasses just the same?
Tonight a few drops rain again from the sky,
Wind will blow, time starts healing once more.

Feelings cannot be seen through the eyes,
They can be painted by heart and realised.
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#40 At the bus stop

The road has been too old, the view still new
It is here that I sit patiently and await your footsteps.
Falling leaves, passing cars, a few eager glances thrown my way
They do not know why I would sit alone while others choose to move ahead.

All the ambitions are gone and everything finished,
I just have one question in my mind
Would you be coming over at this time,
Or do I have to come again another day?

The story should have ended long back.
It never started when we sat together for a cup of tea.
It did not even when we fought over the phone every day,
It did when you decided to move away and leave me.

Time did change the feeling, it made things bleak.
Without use why bother about a person who’s gone, my friends said,
I thought gone she might be, I still at the bus stop wait!
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#13 Alone, Awake, Alive.

Closed eyes towards the world
I sleep a lonely night,
It’s late and I still wait for a knock
To come, and show me the light.

I can do what it takes to be free,
So it matters not what others think of me,
Dreams will come even if I lose all hope
Staring continuously at the big wall in desperation.

I know what the radio said
“Take control of your own voice”,
What it did not say was –
“speak with your own heart”.

I am trying to reach out,
Having had lost all connections to the world.
The world was maybe the same without me,
But only I can make it my own again.

This time I am not falling behind,
Going for a search through thousands of thoughts,
I’ll find myself in my own mind.
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