#63 On the Roads (disclaimer: childishly and sleepily jotted down) 

One more night at an empty motel
The rooms all feel the same
The damp, the dim lights,
Lack the warmth that I had.

The coffee dates, the waffles
The rainy goodbye,
Will I ever forget what you did for me?
I will forget, only if I die.

Do you still look away and smile?
When you think of something funny
But cannot share it because you want to show,
That you are angry and serious you can be.

You know, you have the brightest smile
It is different, and special in this heart.
Made me feel better when I saw,
And you gave me a bit more hope.

Now that it’s dark and time to sleep,
I hope in our dreams we will meet.
Again a time I wish I find,
To hold your hands I hope I can.
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#62 Feelings & Invasion

The fog had returned, but you still did not.
Last year’s festival had faded, the lights, the sound,
All gone from memories,
But the expression of feelings is still there.

There cannot be any mistake
Windows are now shut, no door will open.
The refuge that there was in your arms,
Lost, I lost. I gave it up.

Legions walk past with their shining helmets
Naked weapons flashing, overriding all,
They break, they tear, they strike to destroy.
I am just a spectator on the side of the road.

There is nothing that can change the invasion of the mind,
Whatever came I accepted,
I suffered since nothing I could do against them.
Only you stood in between, you, my shield.

Expectations gave way, the poetry crumbled,
Things have changed since, much like our world’s end. 
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#61 friendship of the lonely man

In the nights of solitude I gaze at the sky
I have my own made up conversations with the Moon.
And the stars chime and giggle at their amazement,
Of looking at the one without any employment.

The Moon asks me, how earth is, it is so far!
I tell all about my slavery, what life has been.
Moon chuckles, for the Moon has endured a loneliness without time.

Sometimes the clouds come in between with their serious voice,
Covering the Moon they stop our words,
They interrupt with their calls for sleep.

Clouds say, human you have been disrupting the calm!
What work you might have talking to the Moon?
It is not your work to let the Moon know about how earth is,
For the Moon does see when everyone else is asleep.

I, puzzled, ask back, why would the Moon only want to see when others sleep?
Clouds reply, the Moon wants to keep all warm,
Those who have no joy in their lives.

I thank the Moon silently before I go to bed,
Watch over me as I dream about a better day, tomorrow,
When again the Moon would be there to talk to me.
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#51 Presence 

Imagine you are there!
But how does it matter?
Even if you stay or leave,
Nothing much changes.

If that is it, think
You are there, but your presence is unfelt.
Surrounded by a lot of voices, others
There is work, there is soul, there is authority above.

Does it change anything though?

Probably it does.
As long as the authority is established,
An invisible target shall stand in front.
I will stand by to aim my feelings
Wiping away staleness, wiping fear, losing all.

Let the heart lose today,
She will arrive there when the time is right.

#50 লিলুয়া বাতাস 

এক যে ছিল সে বসে, একা
চোখ ফিরিয়ে নিও না,
হাত ধরবে কি তার সূর্যাস্তের সময়?

দিন নেই রাত নেই
বসে বসে সে ভাবে পাবে কি তোমায়
পাগল সে তোমার তরে এখনও।

মায়া কাড়ে সব
জীবনের খোলস থাকে শুধু
ভেসে চলে আঁধারের যাত্রী কোন অজানায়!

তোমার ছবি থাকে তার মনে
ছায়ার ওপর ছায়া পড়ে অস্তিত্বের আড়ালে
কখনো কি ভেবেছ এই আকাশ শেষ কোথায়?

দূরে সরে যেতে যেতে
কাছেও আসা যায়
যদি মন চায়, কোনো এক সীমানায়!

আকাশ বাতাসে আশা গড়া
শহর প্রান্তর থেকে বেরিয়ে,
পৃথিবী ছেড়ে কোথায় লুকোতে?

চোখের পাতায় ছুয়ে দিলে
কাটেনি বিস্ময়
এ যে এক স্বপ্ন সত্যি হবার গল্প।

তারার আলোয় হারাবে তাকে
যেখানে ফেলে আসা,
সাগর পারে পায়ের ছাপের ভিড়ে।

শুকনো ফুল ঝরবে যখন
বুকের ভেতর জ্বলবে আগুন
সে শুধু তোমার অপেক্ষায়।

স্মৃতির সাথে মিশে যায় জীবন
দুফোঁটা জল আজ আর আসেনা
মেঘ শুধু আসে আর যায়, বৃষ্টি আনেনা।

সে বসে থাকে,
একা পথে খুঁজে ফেরা পুরোনো দিন
লিলুয়া বাতাস, মন পড়ে থাকে সেথায়।
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#49 Blue Moon

Speak out for real
What you have been holding so far
Things need to change
From how you have survived all scars
Now live your life without fears.

The abuses,
They do not know how you suffer,
Won’t stop,
Even if you submit to their power.

Wake up
Look into the eyes that stare you down
Rise up
You have to break your chains.

When you come out
No one will stand by you and help
I know it’s not easy
But trust me things will be okay!

You never ever know
How much you can help yourself
More than others
It’s your life and it will stay with you.

Uncage yourself
No more things will hold you back
Make it happen
You need to break free only once.

Look above
There’s a silver lining up there
Future changes
Things do not remain the same.

Fly to the sky
When you wish to move to another world
Blue Moon,
There’s a floating palace waiting for you.

One step
Is all it takes to walk away
Welcome,
To yourself in the end.
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#46 Mirror of Colours

Tearing through the haze smirks a shout
A whirling run makes life a lot less complicated
What was together from the start
Has now gone away in two different ways.

Starting at the night the fears become stronger
Loneliness feels less lonely, at least one companion
The pillow doesn’t get wet, they think I have matured.
Only if people knew how bad it hurts to pretend and live.

The mossy undergrowth has decided to cover the scars
Can the light pass through the broken glasses just the same?
Tonight a few drops rain again from the sky,
Wind will blow, time starts healing once more.

Feelings cannot be seen through the eyes,
They can be painted by heart and realised.
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