Move far away after love, so forlorn
Gone, still the heart says no to it,
The vessel of wishes would keep on searching
Still I cannot make the ends meet.
Whenever I stand in front of you
Oh, I cannot speak my dreams
When I am away, I only wish for you.
Torn were all the accessories
Of my feelings hidden behind the futility
Time flowed countless, fairytales wiped away.
Still to get back again I pray.
Dreams are tied by kite strings
Turning musically some things said
Submissive this fancy
Not some pages from a story,
Still in dreams I wish, an entreaty.
What has sailed away should be forgiven
This lovely hellish enchant; but myself, I lose in her.
I feel so powerless, lost within myself
No, I cannot change a thing,
Even what I feel is left unexpressed.
You have been in touch
With your soul and so much more
But you don’t see a simple truth
That without you I am nothing else.
The moonlight catches on all the lies
We said we could live apart!
But I stare outside for a sign,
You look at your phone for a message to arrive.
Were we so different from each other when we met?
Or did we distance ourselves then
In fear of losing ourselves
And confusing what we left.
Tearing through the haze smirks a shout
A whirling run makes life a lot less complicated
What was together from the start
Has now gone away in two different ways.
Starting at the night the fears become stronger
Loneliness feels less lonely, at least one companion
The pillow doesn’t get wet, they think I have matured.
Only if people knew how bad it hurts to pretend and live.
The mossy undergrowth has decided to cover the scars
Can the light pass through the broken glasses just the same?
Tonight a few drops rain again from the sky,
Wind will blow, time starts healing once more.
Feelings cannot be seen through the eyes,
They can be painted by heart and realised.
When the sun glitters across the rain washed horizon
When I feel lonely to even walk away.
The stars might have seen me many a times peeking
But I have not been able to look up since then.
There is a time when flowers dry,
Sky darkens and the day ends in tears.
Life is so very different now that memories remain,
Of scents vanished forever of all happinesses that had been.
Nights went in solitude while I sat with my shadow
Cast on walls talking to each other but not me.
The tree creeper wrinkles round,
Pain, is who decides to be my only mate.
Feelings have left, I am caged. I want to escape, life doesn’t let.
What I was before, I still wish to be.
Walk out of here,
Remember the times we spent together!
The last curling smoke
The feelings of the life before.
The broken glasses and the shattered dreams
Are not the only things that broke.
Walking over is painful
Knowing you don’t have a fault is killing me more.
Holding hands this long
Memory is a rope that now hangs me till death.
Known long enough,
To forget will take this lifetime.
How do you see my tears,
In the pouring rain?
I haven’t been able to stay consistent recently. I end up scribbling something when I am overwhelmed with feelings. At times like that I also lose the ability to properly make sense. The lines below are a testament of that. They signify the pain you feel when the person you like does not trust you, and smiles for another. It’s not jealousy. I have matured enough to understand that. It is the helplessness that you feel. Life doesn’t make sense anymore.
It takes very little time to change,
It matters a lot on the outcome you are looking for.
Just the way the seasons come and go,
Us, we also move from one to another.
The long walks are almost certain to end,
Because after one day you know you cannot do the same thing again.
It is very hard to realise there is no finality in being
Yet hold onto it for the reason that it brings happiness.
It is equally hard to learn this and practice even if you know.
A smile is only a smile, for one it is precious and elusive,
For another it will never mean a thing.
The only difference is the reason why you smile.
I have known all, still I wasn’t able to heal.
I will remain stuck and I will still feel.
Maybe I am weak, maybe it’s destiny.
I know I will fail this time, I have to fall asleep.
The burrows were empty there.
The winds blew all the time
Howled at any passers-by who tried to cross the field.
The dog sat blind under the pole.
And the sun burning everything for revenge.
What happens when this day ends?
The world for them will not change,
They will age and rot when time slips away.
The young girl looked steadily away
From her windows to the vast endlessness,
Her dog did not return.
The leaves never turned green again, the tree dried.
The winds carried sand into her eyes and made her cry. Her two teeth that had come up now were the only sign of aging,
Yet she was so spotless.
She did not know what time did. She did not care.
She had a song to sing.
She waited for the time when she could,
She needed to grow up.
Only thing she did not realise was time demanded a lot. It took away everything in the end.
She would sing but at the cost of being alone.